Obessesion day 17

I can't get her out of my head. I didn't believe in love at first sight. But I do now. Every time I close my eyes I see her smile. I imagine the sound of her voice, I imagine her voice saying my name. A smile starts to cross my face as I think of her. Her eyes are so pretty, precious gems can't compare. I don't know what's become of me, it's like I'm under some sort of spell. I count the hours before I can see her at work. I'm struggling to focus when she is around, and I'm usually a dedicated worker. Recently though, I have been looking for reasons to leave my work and see her. I'll need to borrow some supplies, or make up a question to ask her, I feel a force that pulls me towards her, my soul wants to escape and go to her. I wonder what her hair smells like, how she would feel in my arms, how soft her lips are. Maybe this is fate? Have I finally found the one I was meant to be with? That must be it, there isn't another explanation to how I feel. She smiles at me, and laughs at my jokes. Does she feel the same way? She must, right? Why else would she have asked me if I was married right? She feels this desire like me. She wants me as much as I want her. I would gladly be her slave if it meant I got to be close to her. The idea of listening to her every command was exciting, I would kiss her feet gladly. I could feel my body tremble as I imagined spending time with her. I wonder if she wanted to be my slave? I can't think like that, not yet. I wouldn't be able to calm down. It took a look of self restraint to hold myself back from her. Beads of sweat started to roll down my head, my car was getting uncomfortably hot. I’ve been sitting with the AC off parked a bit away from her house. I wasn't being creepy though. I just happened to see where she lived when I was driving home one day. I looked down at the bracelet in my hands, the one I took off her desk today. It was a good reason to come see her again right? But I felt kinda weird because she never told me her address. Maybe I could say I got it at work? I saw her small car pull into the driveway. I took out my phone and zoomed in the camera so I could get a closer look at her. It was shaky and blurry through my phone camera but it was enough. I felt hot, my body was short of breath. Before I knew it I gently kissed my phone screen. I was wrong to think I wanted her, I needed her. I don't think there was anything else for me in this world. My heart sank as I saw her husband walk out and greet her. Why is she with him? I don't get it. She is mine, and she knows it too. Besides, I'm pretty sure I'm more handsome than he is. It's just making things harder for us. I felt like a light had just been turned on in my head, I get it now. Her husband is a trial of my love. Things in life don't come easy right. I'm sure she just feels bad about being married, but really she wants me. She wants me to prove my love is real, and strong. Then she will be mine, I was being so insensitive to how she felt before. I began to feel bad. She is nice of course and can't just leave her marriage until she knows how strong my love is, she wants to feel safe and secure. I haven't proven myself yet. I started to laugh to myself, I was being so stupid. I'll just have to play the long game, we have the rest of our lives after all. I took the bracelet and rubbed it gently on my cheek, unfortunately it didn't smell like her, I'll have to grab an article of clothing next time. I want to inhale her smell, bathe in it, and live in it. Even if it takes a while to get over some difficulties. We have years and years, to live together, to love together. This is why I was born, why I was placed on this earth. One day I'll be able to have her, then we will live happily ever after.